Eat a Coissant and Keep the Faith

Reading through my dear friends blog [http://geesdiary.wordpress.com/] is always a pleasure. She has become something like a soothing voice that my heart willingly heeds to when it hurts. My little soul therapy session for those emotional days, hence, when she doesn't make an entry for a while I tend to feel robbed of that little bit of joy I would've indulged in on a particularly sad day. Today is an emotional and strange day, but strange as it may be, I am glad it is a day nonetheless.

Eat a Croissant and Keep the Faith!

When you have a weary heart, indulge in a treat and keep believing. Even though it is hard to hold back a flood as large as Noah’s Ark of tears there should be something in us that forces our will to be stronger than before during an ordeal. What do you do when your heart feels like a brick, so heavy that your chest starts to hurt? When you’re intelligence disappears because you ran out of thinkable options and solutions? I guess what I am trying to say is maintaining positivity is not an overnight transformation and is a lot harder than I think. When we want to be happy we make ourselves happy but how can we if we don't set ourselves free? How do you just stand still and let go? But since I am trying this whole “new me” in summer thing I will run this leg of a race till it kills me because I do believe that I am stronger than that even though in my mind I'm rolling kicking and screaming on the floor.

 

Its so delightful when you tell someone that you feel alone and they reassure that you’re not. But with your thoughts honey, you’re definitely alone! You can tell someone everything but you know that at the back of your mind that if that person took a walk in your mind, their perspective would be slightly different than what was revealed on the surface.

 

Needless to say, when in doubt, its human to reach out to something tangible whether it be good or bad to make us feel better. Well yesterday I indulged in a chocolate croissant and a decadent magnum ice cream and though to myself. Oh hell. Ish just got real, hit the ceiling and through the roof. Life is real and its now and I need to have faith even at this point. The perks of growing older is that you get to understand a lot more as well as mature but the downside of it is that you will begin to understand the things you do not want to understand. You might as well get snippets of Satan's lab. You wanna drink to that? Be my guest…its still a long haul.

 

I am not a motivational speaker, I prefer to share my inner thoughts rather because somewhere deep down I know that we are all going through something. Pain is not measured because some people are better at hiding sorrow.

Somewhere I am still inspired to make something of myself of which I cannot regret because consequences are forgotten but they never disappear.

I shall take each day head on as it comes till I reach my happy place…till then, I will eat a croissant and keep the faith.

 

Editorial By: Gugu Msimang from her blog.